Thursday, March 25, 2010

I had a dream

About three or four years ago, I had a dream. A beautiful dream. A dream of a little baby girl in my arms. I distinctly remember the feel of her soft skin as I stroked her cheek and the sight of her head full of soft, dark hair. I stared at her in awe, knowing she was a blend of her daddy and me. What a heavenly feeling as I held her, filling what had so long been my empty arms.

Then I woke up. Realized it was a dream. Felt IMMENSE pain. I sobbed. A lot. No baby. Just a cold, dark room full of dreams. Shortly thereafter I wrote a poem called "Sweet Baby." I wrote it for the baby girl that only existed in that little bit of heaven as I slept.

Mike video taped me reading that poem just weeks before giving birth to our little Alexis Faith. It took a long time to record it...not because the poem was that lengthy, but because I couldn't stop crying. I think we maybe had five or more takes before I could finally get the words out. Maybe I'll post it for you to see someday.

So before, I had a dream.

But now, I have a little girl... sweeter than the sweetest dream.


Debbie Merki said...

Isn't it interesting that the fulfillment of our dreams is made sweeter by the time we spent waiting for them? It's a good thing to remember when we're in the middle of our unrealized dreams! I love you, my friend, and am soooooo happy that this particular dream is finally yours to hold and love!!

michelle said...

love this.....brought tears of joy to my eyes. i am thrilled that god gave you a miracle and made your dream come true!!!

Lydia Brown said...

You really must stop writing things that make me cry! I am so happy for you that your dream is not only real now, but even better than you imagined.

Rae-babe said...

This is beautiful. I would love to have a dream like that except that I don't know if I could stand to wake up.

Alexis Moreno said...